Today was a sad day. It was a feeling that I knew all too well. It’s a feeling of deep loss mixed with helplessness. It’s a feeling of regret, guilt, and a yearning for what could have been all wrapped into one. Today was the day that half of our 13 adult 2 children family unit left. Slowly over the next couple of days, others will trickle away back to their everyday lives.
On our way to our family reunion in Ankara, my parents and I had a layover in Munich. There we accidentally ran into my cousin who was flying in from Helsinki. My cousin was in his early 20’s. Like his sisters, he was someone who knew my dad, had his pictures up, and would talk to him regularly. But they had never met. I could see the tears well up in my father’s eyes as they hugged.
In 1980, my father fled Iran. In 1979, there had been a revolution and Iran subsequently got involved in the Iran Iraq war that lasted about a decade. There are many theories about the reasons behind the revolution and the war. Maybe in 50 years, classified documents will be leaked and the real reasons will be revealed. But in the meantime, I can only speak about what I know.
It is no secret, that the US had a lot of interest and influence in Iran starting from Mossadegh’s time in the 50’s. The Middle East is an oil rich region and between the US, Great Britian, and The Soviet Union there has been no rest for its inhabitants as the superpowers try to establish a stronghold in the area.
It is my understanding that the Iranian Revolution in the late 70’s and the Iran-Iraq war that quickly followed, pertained more to the fight for power between the US and the Soviets following the Cold War. There is so much to learn about the area from that time period and I do not pretend that it can be that simplistic, but in my opinion, US and Soviet relations are the main reason for the unrest that spread through all of the Middle East at that time.
My dad was a Captain in the Iranian Imperial Air Force under the Shah. When the Shah seceded and the Islamic State took over, military personnel had a couple of options: convert to the new regime and risk being killed in the senseless Iran Iraq war, flee and risk being killed en route through the dangerous mountains of southern Iran, or stay put and risk being killed because he worked for the Shah. As one of the few F-4 fighter jet pilots of that time, he was well known by the Shah and within his family. That was reason enough to be killed.
In the middle of some night in 1980, my dad fled. His story of the days that followed proved to be chilling and one miracle after another. Within a short amount of time, he managed to gain political asylum in the US. He was a political refugee and over the next couple of years, he worked in bringing my mom and I to the US. It was not an easy couple of years for us, but by the summer of 1983, the three of us were reunited in the States.
But sadly as a result, my dad can not go back while the Islamic Republic of Iran is still in power. For 37 long years, he has not seen his homeland. There were so many nieces and nephews and grand nieces that he never saw. He wasn’t able to see his dad while he was bed ridden at the end of his life. He wasn’t able to rush his mother the emergency room when she got sick and died. He wasn’t able to attend their funerals and the other ceremonies Persian culture has for helping the grieving. But I pray one day he’s able to visit their graves.
January 24, 2017
Categories: Uncategorized . . Author: Anahita Azizkhani . Comments: Leave a comment